spring break sucks :(

It hurts so bad i want to scream.
I dreamed that we were at school Monday at our lockers and you held me extra long to make it stop hurting and also for i would feel better because i was upset that you didn't come see me all week.

i miss you

I contemplated sneaking out again only because I knew that if i just saw you it would help, but then I knew that you wouldn't want me to.

half the time I'm mad. Mad that youonly text me late at night when you are about to fall asleep, and that you can't find even an hour to come see me.
And the other half of my time I'm sad. Sad that I miss you. Sad that my stomach hurts so bad. Sad that i never get those random sweet texts anymore like :"hey beautiful i just wanted to tell you i miss you and i love you. I will talk to you as soon as i can." Sad that i lay in my bed at night crying because my stomach hurts like Hell. Crying also because I know it will be a good 24 hours before I see you again. The pain is almost unbarable anymore.

I need you. Can't you see that?
I cannot wait to see you Monday.
-only i know Monday will be like anyother day and you won't say anything about this week and how horrible it was for you to not see me. Thats okay though...I understand?
I love the crap out of you baby!

one week from today is our 11 months. Im pretty excited.

Your moving next week babe. So i guess you not coming with me this saturday then?
Oh well I will go alone. I wish i could come help you move but I have to go because I said i would. I'll miss you.
I wonder when the next time you will come to my house will be. You know you haven't come over since February.

I love you.
so much