spring break sucks :(

It hurts so bad i want to scream.
I dreamed that we were at school Monday at our lockers and you held me extra long to make it stop hurting and also for i would feel better because i was upset that you didn't come see me all week.

i miss you

I contemplated sneaking out again only because I knew that if i just saw you it would help, but then I knew that you wouldn't want me to.

half the time I'm mad. Mad that youonly text me late at night when you are about to fall asleep, and that you can't find even an hour to come see me.
And the other half of my time I'm sad. Sad that I miss you. Sad that my stomach hurts so bad. Sad that i never get those random sweet texts anymore like :"hey beautiful i just wanted to tell you i miss you and i love you. I will talk to you as soon as i can." Sad that i lay in my bed at night crying because my stomach hurts like Hell. Crying also because I know it will be a good 24 hours before I see you again. The pain is almost unbarable anymore.

I need you. Can't you see that?
I cannot wait to see you Monday.
-only i know Monday will be like anyother day and you won't say anything about this week and how horrible it was for you to not see me. Thats okay though...I understand?
I love the crap out of you baby!

one week from today is our 11 months. Im pretty excited.

Your moving next week babe. So i guess you not coming with me this saturday then?
Oh well I will go alone. I wish i could come help you move but I have to go because I said i would. I'll miss you.
I wonder when the next time you will come to my house will be. You know you haven't come over since February.

I love you.
so much

The Story of a Dreamer

I burn like an inferno
flames of desire
keepin my hope up
and my dreams even higher
my life is like a ferris wheel spinning round and round
my life is like an elevator going up and down
my family and friends back me up
I hope God will protect me before I get shot up
I have to stay in school and get my education
though i would like to get out and go on a vacation

I don't want to ruin my life or go bad
I appreciate everything I ever wanted or had
my mind is like a machine working hard everyday
Even when I chill or go out and play
My mom gave me life, so full of joy
My dad can't wait to cuss out those knucklehead boys

I hope for world peace; no more war
But everyone has heard that before
God is good, he has been there for me
The pearly white gate of heaven I long to see

I know family will be there
Because God is merciful and fair
Even though if I only touch one person that'll do

Even if that one person is you.

~written by Melanie Bradix, a really good friend of mine. She has definately touched me. She is probably the only friend that I have known for this long. She is amazing :)

♥

HE IS MY EVERYTHING

im done chasing false dreams.you're worth all i've got but im spent so baby show me you want this and i'll give it my all.

never give up on the one you love.

i miss you so much baby!
I love you from the bottom, top, and every space in my heart.
You are my world.
I will love you forever.
Please come over tomorrow.... just call me!

MWAH!

I just hope i get to see you over this spring break...
why didn't we makes plans?...
I wonder how long it will be before we talk again....
Fabi said maybe you would care more if you thought you could lose me. only i can't do that. i don't know if it is because it would hurt me too much to even think of that, or if i did and you still didn't care and how much that would hurt.

i love you with all my heart but lately it just seems like you dont want to be with me. :(
If you don't then okay. I understand, but I need to know.
I need to know if your whole heart is still in this relationship.

Im going shopping for prom dresses today, but if you don't really want to go then I don't see the point. :( kind having a bad day today so far i guess because nobody talks to me anymore...not even my own boyfriend. I hope that changes. I miss you so much.

this picture is what i miss. I miss when you would hold me bucause you just want to be close to me. I miss your big warm hugs. Now I only get little short ones. You seem different and I don't know why. I don't know what i did to change how you felt about me. I just want you to love me as much as you have ever loved me and not any less.
I love Michael Nathaniel Diaz with all my heart. More than I have ever loved anyone and that will not change. He is my world. ♥

Music is the Ultimate Speech

the world communicates using various languages. However, there is one language that speaks to us all. There is not a single human on Earth that can listen to music without it touching their souls.
We often us music to express how we feel. The first thing you do when you are mad and just want to scream, is run to your room and turn the music up real loud. When you are sad, most will listen to a slow sad song so that they won't feel so alone. When you love someone and you listen to any song, every line will remind you of them.
Music says the words that your heart feels. When you listen to a certain song and it's about how you feel, every single word and line explains exactly what your hearts feels. It's like you want to say something and it is on the tip of your tongue, but you just can't get it out right. Then you sit there with the melody of rhymes running through your head and it's perfect.
No matter where you are, who you are, where you come from, or what nationality you are music touches everyone.
To me it's like a hug sort of. Like when i listen to some songs, I will get chills and butterflies in my stomach. Only it isn't the bad scary kind of butterflies. It is the type that you get when you are excited and all your insides go warm. Like when you find out that the boy you have liked for a long time likes you back. Or when you have just accomplished something great and everyone is so proud of you.
Music is my saving grace. I know that it is always there and a simple rhyme can cheer up my day.
I know one song that comes to mind as i think of those butterflies. It is "The River Flows In You". This song sends chills down my spine everytime I hear it's sweet melody. I love music. I love that it is just something I can enjoy now.
Being in band this year made me lose that love for a little while. Now that that is almost over I am gaining my appreciation for songs back. Band makes music a requirement and not something that I really enjoy, but I will always love music.
Music is the world-wide language in which everyone may understand.

~sarah ♥ ;)

COKE BABIES!!!!!!!

soccer sliders

soccer today was so much fun. i mean we got mercied but we had so much fun!

it was Woodward Academy and they have mercied every team they have played except for one=Merry persons and they beat them 9-0 so close enough.

but what was fub was tthat EVERYTHING was wet! so everyone was slipping and sliding all over the place. Plus the reffs were so old that they hardly saw anything. tons of people got side tackled! haha

and michael like face planted into the mud after heading the ball HAHAH!
wow though. it was just an awesome game.

stupid rich kids don't know how to have fun. who cares. we don't have to wear no ugly uniforms.

i had a pretty good day overall today. just not looking forward to writing two essays tomorrow in 1st period. ugh.

I LOVE YOU MEEKO! MWAHS!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥