is today one year????

well we got back together a week ago....

today i suppose to be our one year.
i dont know if it still is

i mean when most couples take a break, after it is over and they are back together they go on with their relationship as if the break never happened.

but michael said we are starting all over...
i dont know what that means.
like so our one month will be on the 9th now
wtf
we've been going out for 355 days now not a week and a day...

but today was suppose to be an amazing day i just dont know if it's ours. :(
i want it to be

but i cant push him anymore. whatever happens happens
and i cant complain cuz he'll think im sad and he hates when im sad


...it's kinda weird cuz when we weren't going out he would be so sweet and flirty to me and then we started going back out and it's all like a routine again.
like he's more my boyfriend when he's not
or he is more into me when im not his.

but i love him
and we're back together and thats what i wanted so who am i to ask for more than that.....

5-17-08??? still ours???

5-17-08 to 4-28-09 FML

yeah... it's true
i lost the best thing in my life
we is my world but now its over.

i just want to get back together already.....
why dont we? you said you still love me just not the same
you say you like me
you say sometimes you wish we wouldn't have broken up
but we still are apart

i hate it so much
i miss you so bad
i love you so much

i just want to be back in your arms
i wanna feel special
i wanna be loved
i want MY michael

........fml.........

i need you
my stomach hurts so bad
i miss everything we had
:'( i suck so much

how could i let this happen
i am a horrible person the worst person
beware everyone....
STAY AWAY

im an idiot
i wish everything was different
but i cant change it

im in love with my best friend
and all i want is to be with him again
FML (FUCK MY LIFE)