the worst weekend :(

ever feel like nobody cares about you?

yeah it sucks when someone you want to talk to just ignores you doesn't it.

sadest thing is i know tomorrow at school i'll have to act like my weekend was fine and nothing bothered me. all the while inside i'll be so mad that i got blown off all weekend.

all weekend and not a single word. not until midnight saturday niht a whispering 20 second long goodnight. guess that's all im worth.
oh well

since then still no word. no call. nothing im just sitting here with this stupid pain in my stomach that i hate so much. i should probably go back to the doctor.

and you can't say that you had no time to call me b/c i know you did. i heard you over the phone when i was talking to your mom. ten minutes no not even that. 5 minutes is all it takes just 5 minutes to say hey i miss you and i love you.

but i don't even get that. i get 20 seconds of whispering that i could barely understand. :'(
i guess this is how every weekend is going to be now so i should just get used to feeling that nobody cares about me. oh well thats life right.
everybody's heart has to be broken sometime. lest mine has been broken once before so i know what it feels like.

is that what's going to happen now? it seems like it i guess. maybe i should start preparing. start not caring how much it hurts for you to sit there and ignore me so that when you find that not talking to me doesn't bother you and you just don't care and leave me, then maybe it won't hurt so bad.

but i can't love you less. it hurts too bad already. i love you too much and i'll never leave. i just wish you cared about how much i love you. i wish you could see that i can't live without you.
i wish you felt the same way for me that i feel for you.
:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

and i can't wait to see you tomorrow. eventhough most would be so mad at you all i want is to hug you and be in your arms. :'(
and if you really don't love me anymore then please just tell me what's wrong with me and I'll fix it i promise. i can change i can be a better girl for you. I'll do anything just please love me.